Friday, 27 March 2015

What a difference another day makes...

I use this blog to moan a lot and I'm afraid that's not likely to change.  But as the exception that proves the rule...  This morning was beautiful - clear, dry, sunny, frosty - my favourite kind of autumn /winter /Spring morning. So even though yesterday just about killed my will to live and I started the day feeling a bit down (and still cramping a bit) I forced myself into walking boots and hit the path, walking 2.3 miles before 7 am. It was a bit exploratory and not the most exciting route but it was BRILLIANT.  Because 2 miles before 7 is always brilliant, no matter what the rest of the day brings :-) and anyway lunchtime brought a shorter but still enjoyable walk along the side of a pretty lake and a very short walk to the shop after work for a total of just over 5 miles.
Work was busy enough to not drag as much as normal too... So not bad all round :)

Food today:
Breakfast: microwaved scrambled eggs with a little cheese
Lunch: homemade soup
Dinner: crispy chicken livers with Kale & spinach salad
Snacks: macadamia nuts; babybel cheese

Thursday, 26 March 2015

What a difference a day makes....

Why did I have to boast about being happy to get out and about yesterday? Was I trying to ruin the weather today? It was dismal this morning and there was just no way I was going anywhere before work except into the office. Rain, cold (though milder than yesterday) and wind. Which only eased off when it was time for me to start actually working, and there was no time to question whether a walk might be feasible. (it wouldn't have been - the whole morning was just crap) The forecast offered hope of sunny intervals - with rain before 9 am and over lunch. Stupid weather. Stupid forecasters. (Yes.  I know they don't make the weather. But I'm bitter) In the event I was prevented from walking between 12 and 1:30 by a conference call from 12:10 to 1:30. During the call there was a torrential shower that would have left me looking like a drownded rather all afternoon so I suppose I should be grateful - but it was such a long, tedious, unproductive call that I basically lost the will to live, so getting soaked would have been much better. The sun shone quite a lot this afternoon, but it clouded over again about 40 minutes before I was leaving.
So obviously I didn't go for a walk today. Except walking around the office and popping to the nearest shop after work - for a total of 2.3 unsatisfactory miles. Coming just when I'm getting my energy back it was frustrating. Work was also frustrating. All in all a less than satisfying day.
This evening after a few days of relative tinglylessness my left fingers - all of them - and my feet - both of them - broke out in tingling again to see pretty maddening degree. I didn't take the second dose either, so it's doubly weird. Having said that I'm having some stomach cramping and mood swinging along with constipation and water retention so I guess it's TTOM and the pills are just adding their mite to the general discomfort.

I really hope it isn't raining again tomorrow...

Food today:
Breakfast: microwaved scrambled eggs with a little gammon and a very little spinach
Lunch: homemade soup
Dinner: chili topped with a little Greek yogurt and grated cheddar
Snacks: very small amount of pate-stuffed celery; babybel cheese

Wednesday, 25 March 2015

And better...

I walked a bit today and I'm so happy!  (within the context of working, very occasional tingling fingertips and no where near enough money)
I got to work at the crack of dawn as usual and instead of sitting playing candy crush until it was worth getting started I went for a half hour walk. It was bitterly cold I have to say - I thought it was supposed to be Spring now?
That woke me up a bit so I went out again - also just for a short walk - at lunchtime. But hey, between the two I still managed about 3. 5 miles so well worth it! Despite the shivering and watering eyes. I did less yawning today - though I still stuck to my one real coffee. And decaf is beginning to taste better to me already.

Food today:
Breakfast: microwaved scrambled eggs with a little gammon and some mushroom
Lunch: homemade soup
Dinner: chicken salad
Snacks: pork scratchings

Tuesday, 24 March 2015

Slightly better

Philosophical question of the week...  If you give up carbs, alcohol and coffee...  Is life actually worth living?  Is it genuinely prolonged or does it just feel like it is?
Am I feeling a little bit sorry for myself...?  Possibly...
It's mostly just being tired again - in actually getting more determined on the caffeine front the worse I feel simply because I don't like depending on something like that - and I don't think there's any doubt that I was depending on it with great enthusiasm. I don't think Decaf coffee tastes as good as the real thing - though it could just be a matter of adaptation, like switching from full sugar sodas to sugar free or cutting out the sugar in the coffee. Maybe soon I won't like the taste of full strength coffee...  Joy? Is that at all likely? Or do I just have to settle for believing in the benefits while accepting the flavour downgrade?
So it was a good day food and drink wise but there was no exercise except walking around the office. I plan to try to go out at lunchtime - I did intend to today, but had a meeting to attend.

Food today:
Breakfast: thin quick cook turkey breast steaks topped with microwaved poached eggs
Lunch: homemade soup
Dinner: chicken thighs with lemon cream sauce and grilled asparagus
Snacks: pate stuffed celery sticks

Monday, 23 March 2015

Bed time...

I was in a slightly weird mood today...  I had a migraine yesterday so I think it was probably left over from that, but I felt kind of foggy. I was also really tired.  I realised at the weekend that I've been basically marinating my brain and other organs in coffee the last few weeks and decided that it was time to get it under control - so I had one cup of the real thing this morning and for the rest of the day drank Decaf coffee, naturally caffeine free herbal tea, and water.  God I missed the coffee....
Food was also weird. I couldn't decide what to take as a snack so I didn't take anything and was fine most of the day, but then really hungry by about 4pm. When I got home I dived into a jar of peanut butter (no added sugar).
I like not needing a snack during the day but need to work on not letting myself go nuts (hah) after work and if that means snacking midafternoon, I'll do it.
Anyway, enough garbage for today...

Food today:
Breakfast: hardboiled egg and gammon salad with cottage cheese pancakes
Lunch: homemade soup
Dinner: turkey salad
Snacks: peanut butter on cottage cheese pancakes

Friday, 20 March 2015

Busy busy day!

What a disappointment the solar eclipse was!  I had hoped for a bit of a distraction but here in Berkshire it was do cloudy this morning that at its peak it just looked like it might rain hard. Then within a couple of hours it cleared up, the sun came out, the temperature hit double digits (just) and I was able to very briefly wander around the industrial park where the office is located without a coat on - so nice! 
I had very little tingling today, which was good obviously, but after boasting I'd been sleeping well I had a truly awful night last night, almost screamed blue murder when the alarm went off, and spent the morning marinating my brain in caffeine. And to cap it all off,  I was busy testing and writing test scripts all day - which does take brain power and concentration :-( I was not a happy bunny and I'm still shattered now so I'm about to have an early night. 
Today for the first time in a week I wanted chocolate of some kind. I didn't eat any, even when offered leftover cake from yesterday's bake sale, even when I went to the shop after work. I was pleased with myself there, I don't mind admitting it. Now I just have to continue with that. Onwards and downwards (weightwise) I hope... 

Food today:
Breakfast: a leftover lamb burger 
Lunch: homemade soup 
Dinner: chicken and grilled asparagus with a 'side salad' of hard boiled egg in homemade mayo 
Snacks: cashews & peanuts 

Thursday, 19 March 2015

Tingling but NSV

My body is evil and was lulling me into a false sense of security...  I woke up this morning and before my first pill my hand was tingling, which got worse after I took the pill, and then later my feet took over. Midafternoon I actually wound up hiding in the ladies room so no-one could see me apparently having a fit trying to shake off my right hand.
So anyway. Work was relatively good today in that I raised lots of bugs and even closed a couple off.
There was a bake sale this morning. It was very inconveniently and inconsiderately set up in the main lobby, which I have to walk through every time I want a hot drink from the first floor kitchen. I went downstairs to the ground floor kitchen once to make a cup of tea, then switched to bottled water that I brought in so I didn't have to go back to the kitchen until lunchtime. Didn't buy anything!!!  Which makes me feel a little uncharitable as they were doing it to raise money, but a few girl's got to do what she's got to do...

Food today:
Breakfast: overnight almond pancakes with microwaved over poached eggs
Lunch: homemade soup
Dinner: egg and cheese salad
Snacks: cashews